we're talking now.

it's been awhile but she and i are talking again, i want us to be together again. i haven't mention about if we're getting back i want to wait a little longer for that. on a brighter note Toonami is getting better with new shows and more game reviews,. i want every who reads or follows to start watching it

it still hurts

im going to be posting videos for awhile,  it still hurts alot

the start of the new semseter

hey guys sorry for wait, i know i said i would post almost everyday, well i've been busy last month and this month. i got some bad news my girlfriend and i are on a brake,we been together for a few months and when she told me it was a shock. i tried everything in my power to hang out with her and we haven't seen each other since June and it hurts alot so i'll try to post as much as i can. i did have a good summer and Comic Con was great though. this video seems right to post today

Announcements

well i good news and bad news. bad news is that i was placed on first semester academic probation. it's sucks so much and i have to go to a workshop. i don't know if i can tell my parents. the good news is that im going to San Diego Comic Con 2012 next month. i don't want to tell my parents what happened, so im going to keep it quite for now. i need your support and let me work on school

Summer

So i haven't been posting in awhile. my summer's be great so far. i got to see my friends, one i haven't seen a  months. im trying to find a job and so far nothing, but im still trying. i haven't seen my girlfriend in awhile though i  wish i can see her :(. anyways, how's your summer so far, are you in school still or going to summer school? i"ll try to post almost everyday. i getting ready for a big event next month, but i'll save that for later

Toonami is Back!

Make sure you watch Cartoon Network for Toonami. Yes it's back and it's needs more fans. During AdultSwim Saturday Night and early Sunday morning Animes for Toonami Fans, with new and old animes. This Saturday Night. Don't miss it.

Done for the year!

I am Officially done with my second year college. i hope you guys are out too. have a great summer everyone!

The ending of a another semester

Well it's that time of year where the weather gets better, spring is in the air, and you know what that means. school is coming to a close for the year. yes i know some of you are happy and ready for the summer while others are worry about finals and grades. im right in the middle. i want to pass three of my classes, but i want to spend time with my girlfriend and my friends. let's see how i do with my classes, wish me luck guys and i'll see you guys in a few weeks. take care and stay gold. bang

My world

no matter what the world puts in my way, i'll do my best to overcome it. if i fall, i'll get back up. i have friends to support me and take care of me. i have to do my best to live and fight for things worth fighting for. i can make it in this uncertain world that we all live in. this is i who i am

my friend

my friend does not a tumor. i forgot to post it earlier, but he's going fine now, bu he still has to get surgery though. it's nothing serious,but he needs to get it out though. i hope everything goes well

im finally in a relationship.

After five year of being in the friends zone i actually have a girlfriend and she's awesome. my life just got a bit better

There this girl

for almost a week i have talking to this girl who goes to same college as i do. we been talking and it turns out we have some similar interest. we talk about meeting up and we did. she's really cute and we went to the mall together and we just window shop. i invited her to the club im in and she actually likes it. we been chatting about anything and how we are doing. i really hope something happens with her.

One of my friends.

i found out that one of my friends has a brain tumor. i don't want to lose him. we meet last semester and we hang out alot. i lost too many classmates while i was in school. i don't want to lose another

My Decision

i Decided that i will go into Video Games and become a Designer. Video games have been in my life for a long time and i love playing them. i hope that one day i will work for either Nintendo or Capcom

Giving Up

i been wanting to give up. alot of people have don't me no, but can't help thinking about it. i need someone to talk to about it, but i haven't found her yet. i looking for a girl i can share this pain and burden that i have, but no one seems to notice me. it's better that i disappear from this world.

I've notice

i've notice alot of people are getting together. the weird thing is,it always happens during spring time. i don't know why, but i don't know, is it because im lonely and i don't have anyone? or have i just notice certain things?

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life (Official Video)

Thinking

i been thinking about my life lately. i don't where to go let alone what to do with my life. is this path right for me or do i stray from this path i walk. there's so many things on my mind, settling down with the girl of my dreams and having a steady job. my educations has been lacking lately, i haven't put alot of enough in it. i just don't know what to do right now

KONY 2012

putting myself out there

i come to the time in age where it's time to find a girlfriend. i never had one in my life, i had girls that were friends, but never a girlfriend. it's difficult for me to find a girlfriend who accepts me who i am. being a nerd turns away alot of girls. i trying to find a girl who is similar to me, but i haven't found her yet. that be said, i wonder if there's something looking for me or did i already found her and i missed my chance?

The mask i wear

i have been wearing a mask for awhile. ever since 9th grade. i only tell the friends who i trust that i show my true self. i been hurt emotionally to the point where i had no where to go. so i put on a mask to hide my tears and my problems. it was my burden that i carry. over years the mask does want to come off. i tried so much and it shows my past to me and i have go into despair. the mask consums me like a demon. i realized that i need to break free from my mask and rise. to show the world who i am really am instead of fake self. it's going to be hard to take it off, but it need to before it consums my soul and my whole body.

Losing someone

have you lost someone you care about? i count how many times i have. it seems life takes things away from us sometimes. a kid in my town lost his life, he was only 14 years old and barely starting out in life. something like that shouldn't happened. my prayers goes to his family

The Eyeshine Experience - Episode 1

The Fray - How To Save A Life

Valentine's day

well i didn't have the greatest Valentine's, but i wasn't a horrible day. i really hoped i would have someone, but it's ok i hoped everyone had a good valentine's day.

A combination of both

I am Like Tomoya Okazki. i do whatever i can to help my fiends. i have been through hell  in the past years. i try to understand my friends the best that i can. i haven't been the best student in college, but im trying to change that.

When i comes to Ichigo Kurosaki. i want to protect my friends. even if it means i would give up my life to save my friends. that's one of the reasons i want to become a cop.  it's something i felt i wanted to do. no it's something i was meant for. i can't everyone, but i can save the ones i love and care for













                                                                         

Self Confidence

so today, i started to like this girl i seen around my campus and she's a Zelda Nerd. she has a 3DS and Ocarina of Time 3D. i talked to her once, but i want to get to know her without me getting to close. so one of friends told her i liked her and well she laughed.  i don't what to do now

L'arc en ciel - Good Luck My Way

Bleach is Ending?!

Bleach is ending. it's hard to believe, but the series is entering it's final arc. after 10 years it's coming to an end. i wonder what's going to happen, hopefully Ichigo becomes a Captain or stay a Substitute Shinigami (and finally gets with Orihime) i hope it has a good ending

Let It Out- Miho Fukuhara (English and Romaji Subs)

Respect

i get no respect at home. i get treated like crap. they yell at me for not helping and they yell at for trying to help. make up your mind. i hate how im treated at home.

Best Friend

Today i meet my best friend. i haven't seen her since we graduated from high school. she has been there for me, even since we meet back in freshmen year. she has been through hell and so have i. today was also here birthday, i gave her something special that was made from my heart. she will always be in my heart. i truly care for her. i would give my life to save her life. i will be there for her no matter what. 

Why?

Why im i always like this. no matter what i do i can't change the past and what i've done. it seems life doesn't want me to have a good life. i don't know why bad things happen to me, fate destiny, or watherevr. i need to find a purpose in life. i don't know what to do. i feel so lost and consumed by something inside me. my inner hallow or my past self. when i meet someone i don't want them to have someone like me as a friend. i come home and i cry, but i don't show it to anyone. i need someone or an event that can change that.  i want to feel i was meant for something on this world

Having someone who wants to control my life.

a friend of mine ask me how i was doing. i told her then truth and she got on ranting how i meet someone and barely know for a few months and i want to be in a relationship with her. the girl i told the truth i been knowing her for 5 years now. she keeps saying she is better than all the girls i meet in my life. it pisses me because i couldn't defend myself.

The Friend Zone

i hate the friend zone. i been in the friend zone since high school. i never seem to get out of it. no matter what i did, it always had the sam results. Girls say they want someone to understand them, but they give me or perhaps any guy a chance to get close. they also don't want to know the real me, the guy who has been though hell and they don't want me for who i am. that's their lose then.

First day of the new semester

First day back from vacation. it was actually great, meet my new professor, saw my friends, and no homework! still there's something i couldn't put my mind on. i don't know what it was but im sure it was nothing. anyways i hope this semester wil be great

Have you ever found the one?

Have you ever found the one? the one who understands you, the one who will be there, the one you can't get rid of? i have. she was the person i was looking for, she was everything to me. she the only one for me. she helped me through my dark times. she was there when i couldn't go on. she had my back. unfortunately i never had her. i made a mistake that i regret. if only i could go back in time and change the mistakes i made i would have been a different person then today. if you have someone, don't let them go. talk about how you feel, go on dates, live your life. don't be like me and dwell on the past. focus on your future and not the past.

Welcome

Welcome to my blog. i am a gamer, anime nerd and a former musician. im your average college student who has been tossed around and has fallen a couple of times, but get's up and tries again. These are my stories of a nobody who wants to be somebody, but has been told no over a thousand times and somehow manages to keep going.