Let It Out- Miho Fukuhara (English and Romaji Subs)

Respect

i get no respect at home. i get treated like crap. they yell at me for not helping and they yell at for trying to help. make up your mind. i hate how im treated at home.

Best Friend

Today i meet my best friend. i haven't seen her since we graduated from high school. she has been there for me, even since we meet back in freshmen year. she has been through hell and so have i. today was also here birthday, i gave her something special that was made from my heart. she will always be in my heart. i truly care for her. i would give my life to save her life. i will be there for her no matter what. 

Why?

Why im i always like this. no matter what i do i can't change the past and what i've done. it seems life doesn't want me to have a good life. i don't know why bad things happen to me, fate destiny, or watherevr. i need to find a purpose in life. i don't know what to do. i feel so lost and consumed by something inside me. my inner hallow or my past self. when i meet someone i don't want them to have someone like me as a friend. i come home and i cry, but i don't show it to anyone. i need someone or an event that can change that.  i want to feel i was meant for something on this world

Having someone who wants to control my life.

a friend of mine ask me how i was doing. i told her then truth and she got on ranting how i meet someone and barely know for a few months and i want to be in a relationship with her. the girl i told the truth i been knowing her for 5 years now. she keeps saying she is better than all the girls i meet in my life. it pisses me because i couldn't defend myself.

The Friend Zone

i hate the friend zone. i been in the friend zone since high school. i never seem to get out of it. no matter what i did, it always had the sam results. Girls say they want someone to understand them, but they give me or perhaps any guy a chance to get close. they also don't want to know the real me, the guy who has been though hell and they don't want me for who i am. that's their lose then.

First day of the new semester

First day back from vacation. it was actually great, meet my new professor, saw my friends, and no homework! still there's something i couldn't put my mind on. i don't know what it was but im sure it was nothing. anyways i hope this semester wil be great

Have you ever found the one?

Have you ever found the one? the one who understands you, the one who will be there, the one you can't get rid of? i have. she was the person i was looking for, she was everything to me. she the only one for me. she helped me through my dark times. she was there when i couldn't go on. she had my back. unfortunately i never had her. i made a mistake that i regret. if only i could go back in time and change the mistakes i made i would have been a different person then today. if you have someone, don't let them go. talk about how you feel, go on dates, live your life. don't be like me and dwell on the past. focus on your future and not the past.

Welcome

Welcome to my blog. i am a gamer, anime nerd and a former musician. im your average college student who has been tossed around and has fallen a couple of times, but get's up and tries again. These are my stories of a nobody who wants to be somebody, but has been told no over a thousand times and somehow manages to keep going.